Can I tell you something dirty?

OMG! Tyson's orgasmic hot! Despite the fact that I only saw him like 3cm tall, but it was fucking worth it!

Yeargh, be envious people! Marry me, Tyson! *unleashing fangirliness side* OMG, can barely see him! *squinting eyes* He's the one with the native Indian headband. Can you see, can you see?

Brush aside everything - huge sweaty dudes jumping (not to mention the stench, please, erlack!), major headache, etc. - the concert's pretty okay. Opening acts by Disagree, One Buck Short and Pop Shuvit. And we got stranded at the train station right after, cool eh? Hung out with friends later that night. Shisha-ed. Mmmh, guilty pleasure. x) Didn't fucking sleep the whole bloody night. I looked as tough I got raped. -_-"

Feeqa and I; before it started.

Went to MIAT last Saturday. SSM stuff thingy. The hangar's pretty awesome. So now I can brag to people that I've been on an actual helly! Haha. Will be going there again soon, to collect data and stuff. Have I mentioned that NMRR has approved our proposal? So, yeah.

So enough crap, later chickass.

Helly, baybeh. Err. Missing propeller?

Whee! Welcome to Flight MH137 yada yada..

What? It's not like I get to photograph with planes everyday.

Fighter plane which name I've forgotten.

Pretty cool eh? x)

Cross my T's and dot my I's.

I am going to watch All-American Rejects! Whee hoo. Hell yeah, life's good.

Went through very topsy turvy times just recently. But glad the storm's over, I'm unaffected much, yeah. Now, let's turn into a new chapter in life now, shall we? OMGEE, I totally admire myself for this sudden surge of optimism.

I'm in deep shit. Come to think of it, I'm always in deep shit now, aren't I? Am left with zero money. None, nil, nothing. Not even shillings. Had to literally beg for money to eat lunch just now. Lunch menu: McD's Double Cheeseburger McValue Meal lunch thingy. Oh, I got a purple Coke glass this time! x)

There's a fat cat living on my porch. We decided to call him Stu (last name Pitt). Stu's really fat and round and always hungry. He reminds me of Chenko.

Had oral exam for Mandarin today. Haha, tre ridonculous. My sister would be hell proud of me! Definitely screwing yet another module exam. Sigh. I promise, for CNS I'm gonna do better. Hee.


I shall call myself the epitome of cool, calm and collected.




Oh hell motherfucking yeah, AAR!!!

Friday, I'm in love. ♥

I am annoyed. With a lot of things. Yet, I feel happy, and contented. I feel nervous, like butterfly-in-stomach kinda nervous.

I got harrased by a crazy person the night before. Scary shit, I tell you. :s I want Chanel spectacles! *sulk*

I've come to realized that I should stop spending money like water. Although my feet are really itching for that gorgeous pair of Charles & Keith chunky heels.. Goddammit.

What's the similary between an apple and an orange? They both grow on trees? CONGRATULATIONS, I have a mental disorder.

I must bear in mind that, 'YOU can't always please everyone'. People change. Everyone's a hypocrite. Some are major ones.

I hate kids. That includes babies, toddlers of all kinds. I don't think they're cute, at all. They are just annoying, noisy, gross creatures; to me. I am sorry, I tried liking em but it didn't work.

Holy shite. Nice, I just got bitten by a stripy mosquito. -.-''

My laundry's piling up. I have yet to chug em into the washing machine. Sigh, I am tre lazy. I have nothing else to wear, I resort to wearing kurung all week. Hello, perempuan Melayu.

Room's a bomb site too, I shall add.

I don't care if Monday's blue.
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too.
Thursday I don't care bout you.
It's Friday.
I'm in love.

Running in heels.

Things are looking promising now. I've decided to turn over a new leaf. x)

I know I've sinned. All apologies. It was the anger. I'm really sorry.

Am going back to Ipoh on Saturday. Holidays are ending, it's saddening.

Oooh, I've already found a dress for the night! It's a total cutie. Hee.

Shit. SSM proposal is still undone. Craaaaaaap.

Raya was fun, nonetheless very exhausting. I secretly think Mom enjoys it more. She needn't to do all the cooking due to open houses. Haha. I've had so much of tomato rice, am never gonna devour them for the next ten years! It was fun you know, meeting all the relatives and stuff. But thank God raya is only once a year. Haha. All these food aren't exactly figure-friendly. -.-''

S.S.M. Module.

Shitty.
Sucky.
Motherfucking.
Module.


I'm getting googly crazy eyes from reading stupid journals and articles regarding stress management coping strategies. It's so shitty I feel like slitting my throat over and over and over again. In the meantime, let's do a lil quiz now, shall we:


To understand my reactions to life's stressor, I shall consider my current stress coping behaviors.

Do you tense up?
Yes.

Do you reach for something to eat?
I gnaw on my nails.

Do you get impatient?
Yes. Next question!

Do you get angry?
I'm feeling pretty hostile right now.

Are you reduced to tears?
Well, not yet.

Do you give up?
It's next on my list of things-to-do.

Do you let negative thoughts take over?
Hello? Slitting throat?

Have you started smoking again?
Not yet.

Do you turn to alcohol or other drugs?
Barbican! And scented unfiltered carbon monoxide. Harhardiharhar.



Voila! I AM HELL STRESSED. Still working on the bloody research proposal. So much more to do, like the methodology and questionnaire and stuff. It is pure annoyance, no being able to get this shit done smoothly. I am losing my sanity soon.



I gotta go sniff a peanut now.

Now it's in Technicolor.

Hey ho.


I think facebook is getting crappier. With all the stupid quizzes and applications and stuff. Especially FarmVille. Oh goodness. People go to the extend of waking up in the middle of the night to harvest and plant strawberries. Tsk, tsk. The internet can do things to you, no.


I've finished reading Invisible Monsters. Tre cool. Gonna read it for the second time now. I love Chuck's writing style; it is great. Am definitely buying his other books like Fight Club and Snuff. x)


I am so going for the student dinner night thing. It's gonna be fun, hopefully. On a dress-hunting mode now. Can't bloody wait! I wanna get my hair highlighted with red streaks. But I'm not allowed to. Boo hoo. This is so annoying.


Had a dream of feasting on a sushi buffet during one of my very occasional afternoon naps today. Hee. Mmm. The sushi was awesome. Not a fan of it really, but right now I crave for it. Okay! Tomorrow's break fast venue: Sushi King! Yeah. I am such a hypocrite.


Currently, I am out of full-cream milk and drinking water. Am dying of dehydration, ha. Sorry, but I don't consume mineral water. It tastes like dirt.


I miss Mr. Spidey.


I shall stop taking glucose drinks. It only disrupts my beauty sleep.


Have I mentioned how challenging fasting is?

Seasick.

I'm seasick, in an ocean of emotions. Went through my old files of photos last night. Goodness, such memories.


I think Chuck Palahniuk's a genius. Am currently indulging in one of his books called Invisible Monsters. It's a good read, so far. Haven't actually finished reading.


I'm starting to feel like an invisible monster myself. Maybe I should get shot in the jaw.


I think Ramadhan's really challenging the shit out of me. It's just...challenging. Sigh.


There are a lot of things in life that I'm not satisfied about.


But, I'm afraid to make decisions about it. I'm scared of living in solitude.


Val Kilmer & Billie Joe Armstrong are really gorgeous.


I'm no saint. It's the perfect crime. x)

Woof, bark, woof.

It's a dog-eat-dog world out there. And you can NEVER teach an old dog new tricks.

Fun in the sun.

Langkawi's tre cool.

The 5-hour bus and 45-min ferry rides seem worth it. Even the 1000-mile walk in search for seasick pills seems like nothing. Okay, so the seasickness was bad. The pill made me so drowsy, I had to get the guys to carry my luggage. Hee. Anyways, On the first day itself it was awesome. The beach was wowness. The sunset was breathtaking. We walked along the night market cause the girls wanted to buy parios and this kakak showed us how to tie em. Really cool. Alyia bought a sundress and I got myself a pair of bikini. Nice. The lodging was eww, by the way. Nonetheless, I survived. :)

The evil ferry ride.

The second day was the pinnacle of the trip, I suppose. We went on an island-hopping trip. Had to wake up at the crack of dawn (9 a.m.). The boats took us around the archipelago and we stopped at Pulau Dayang Bunting. Got ourselves attacked by man-eating monkeys, but hey, we survived. Ha. I tried my hands (or feet) on the 'fish spa'. There's this area of the lake where they rear keli for to dip our feet in. It was nice, like dipping my feet into a bowl of jello. Ticklish and soft-ish. Hee. The lake was like 15 - 20 feet deep, I had to swim with my life jacket on. The jacket gave me the ultimate wedgie ever!

Dayang Bunting Lake.

Then we stopped by Pulau Beras Basah. The water there I tell you, it's fucking green! It's gorgoeous! The sand was soft, and pearly white. Only downside was, there weren't any restrooms. Eww. So anyways, we splashed around and got ourselves some 'tan' (more like burn though) til the others had to practically drag us out of the water cause it's time to leave. Went back to our dodgy motels, freshen up, then headed for Underwaterworld. We stopped by kedai mamak for lunch and played a few rounds of poker (I won the first few rounds, ha!). The penguins were supposed to be cute, but their place was disgusting. Poor little fellas. We had bbq later at night. This time, the guys and girls ate together. Hmm. Good, good. x)

My girls and I. At gamat factory thing.

3rd day. We were supposed to go for this cable car ride thing, but it was so windy, they weren't operating on that day. Bummer. So the bus driver person took us to this gamat processing factory. Eww. Then we headed for Kuah to buy chocolates. Whee. I spent so much on those stuff. The ferry ride back to Kuala Perlis was hell. And again, the pill made me so drowsy, I had to hire a 'porter' to carry my stuff for me. Hee. What would I do without you, my potty boy? Slept all the way back home. Reached Ipoh at around 11 p.m. I was so beat.

But I had so much fun and I'm so sunburnt. :)

How you love me now?

I shall start by saying: I'm scared.

I'm scared of new things; unless they are shoes, or bags, or clothes.. I have these sudden cravings for shoes nowadays.. Anyways, yeah. I'm scared to come out from my comfort zone. I like things the way they are, suden changes would really freak me out. Like, right now. I'm afraid that a lot of things won't be the same anymore. Why do bizzare(er) things keep happening, one after another?

I've sinned. And I have serious issues. x) I don't like sharing. It's just not my thing.

Am going on a trip to Langkawi with my batchmates next week. Hopefully it'll be fun though, hopefully no more girls-eat-inside-boys-eat-outside-bbq-kinda-shit anymore. Oooh, I wanna try jetskiing. Yes, I'm that lame. I've never jetskied. Or bananaboating.

I miss home. And my parents. And the little rascals. Boo, sucky Maxis line. Please, oh please magically unbar my phone line, please?

I don't know nuts about what I'm learning in college this year. All I remember was, 'If you wanna know, it's okay. But if you don't, it's up to you. I don't care.' Wow. Really encouraging, no? I'm pumping with adrenaline now. Omg. Did I just use something scientific in a sentence? Wow. I'm smart. I have Histology class every freaking week. The schedule's fucking packed. And to top it all off, Malaysian Studies and Mandarin are compulsory subjects. Nice. Now I can go on a cursing-in-Mandarin fit with my sis.

The car engine went dead while cruising on the highway at 60km/h when I took over the wheel. I am such a super driver. But hey, at least I can drive sticks (manual cars. It only applies within this context)!

I should be mature about life now.


Oh shit! Mommy, I have a booboo and it hurts.