The Devil Has The Best Tunes.

Prince charming.

2012-02-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

I love these. I'm going to keep buying more. :D

Hello twenty twelve!

2012-01-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

Things are looking promising this year, hopefully.

I AM DONE WITH ORTHOPEDICS POSTING. Bloody hell am I going to miss it, being the only person in my batch (probably) who actually enjoys orthopedics. Honestly, I aspire to become one of the very few female orthopedic surgeons. The exam, nevertheless, was utter crap. I meant, I was utter crap. I had to examine a gentleman's shoulder joint. What the-? I ended up making the fellow moved his hands and arms about like a loon. (sorry, uncle ==') Clear fail.

Went rollerblading with the girls in my group when posted in Taiping. Fun. Fell and chipped a bone. Sweet. Am supposed to be on a cast for two weeks, but eff it! :D I even got onto a banana boat ride, twice, a few days after!

Last Friday night (13/1/12), was one of the best nights of my life. Why you ask? Foster the People, that's why. Had to go through a series of obstacles, but I finally made it to KLCC. It was awesome.

"I'll help you see it through, cause I just really want to be with you."

Gagap technology.

2011-12-09T21:48:00.003+08:00

Or gaptech for short.

I am an emo bitch. Why? I think the world is trolling with me. My so-called smart phone is forked up. I can't receive texts or calls. Then after a while it works like a dream again.

My FB stops giving me notifications. Please don't get me started on FB chat.

Did my elective report in only 600something words. Was out of creative juices. Even after a short drive.

Went to a place that has got weird towers jutting out from the ground last night. Not to mention the eerie blue lights.

Thanks. Though creepy looking, they look kinda cool actually. Wonder if I stand in the middle too long it'll channel some super powers in me.

Candies and knick knacks.

2011-11-27T11:41:00.007+08:00

Today is M&M's big whatnotday. Jellybean wouldn't want to miss it for the world, unfortunately Jellybean lives some place far, the furthest amongst its friends. So it decided to take a coach to someplace and join its friend there, Gummybear, and together they'll drive down to M&M's place. Gummybear was not keen of going, so Jellybean called the whole road trip off. Gummybear called Jellybean last night, happily telling that it is going to M&M's whatnot, but with someone else instead, Marshmellow. THE FUCK, Marshmellow doesn't even know M&M like Jellybean does. Jellybean is sad/furious/annoyed beyond words. Jellybean kills Gummybear. The Fucking End.

Handcuffed.

2011-11-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

Irreplaceable.

2011-10-30T19:59:00.002+08:00

Who is she? She is Nadia.

Love you long time babe. Nothing can ever replace you.

The switch.

2011-09-07T00:28:00.001+08:00

Fucking turned off la weh!

Bare necessities.

2011-08-26T03:08:00.004+08:00

It's true when they say close friends are like bras; they provide the best support in times of need and is always close to your heart. It also hurts like fuck when the underwire pokes your chest.

Can I not grow up?

2011-08-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

Pretty, please?

I love Paediatrics! (note: Paediatrics, not kids) Funny how people say it's the busiest posting ever, I find it interesting. I love classes with Dr. Tharam and Dr. Yee. They kick serious ass, they do.

Beats MITSHIT and Psychiatry any day.

Tumectomy.

2011-08-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

Is that even a valid word?

Removal of a tumor.

Manic state.

2011-08-01T20:28:00.004+08:00

Of bipolar mood disorder.

elevated, expansive mood
inflated self-esteem
decreased need for sleep
easily distracted
more talkative
flight of ideas
increase in goal-directed activity
excessive involvement in pleasurable activities that have a high potential of painful consequences i.e. unrestrained shopping sprees

You are the best!

Had the best weekend of the year so far! Thank you Fifi for;

bearing with me,
driving me here and there,
stuffing my mouth with food,
letting me sleep in til noon-ish,
the encouragements and help when I was so indecisive to buy things,

and a whole lot more. Too many to list them out here. :)

Waiters and Customers.

2011-07-28T20:14:00.002+08:00

I guess I am the former.
Always will be kept waiting.
Aren't the customers always right anyway?

Roloc.

2011-07-20T02:19:00.002+08:00

Color me happy?

Milk and cookies.

2011-07-17T19:47:00.003+08:00

Or crackers. Or biscuits. Whichever.

Aren't those seals the cutest? :)

I've always enjoyed animal crackers. They are just too adorable! Would dip em into milk and eat them head first. They must be eaten that way! Ditto for gummy bears and other sorts of animal-ish foodstuff.

How do they maintain their crunchiness? Simple. They're vacuumed-packed and sealed before being stuffed into boxes, distributed to markets and ended up in our alimentary tract (erlack)!

But. Would you still eat those animals crackers when you found out that their seal is broken?

At this rate I'll never get to enjoy any cookies. Or crackers. Biscuits. Whichever.

Please.

2011-07-06T12:14:00.003+08:00

I need a retreat! Tolong lah jadi this Perhentian trip.

edit: trip got cancelled. yeay. can never make plans with hellpoh fuckers. cause we're no fun.

Exploding Meatball Sub.

2011-07-02T01:45:00.003+08:00

Imbeciles.

2011-06-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

Things I can't live without.

2011-06-17T12:37:00.003+08:00

Here is a list of things I practically need / use every day.

1. Flat iron.

Well, I'd literally die without it. My fringe has a mind of it's own, thus a good dash of heat really helps tame it down.

2. Mobile internet.

Imagine being stuck in looong tortuous MITC classes, without internet access! Maxis has been less of a bitch these past 7 weeks of hell. *bows thank you.

3. My fave pillow.

Though hated and despised by many, my love for you will never change.

4. Mascara.

I am not one of those people who are blessed with palm-leaves-long-gorgeous eyelashes. So a bit of mascara helps in many ways.

5. Blusher.

Neither am I blessed with rosy cheeks too.

6. EPO.

Dysmenorrhea no more! :)

7. Early morning coffee.

The only way to kick-start my day. The smell of coffee in the morning is just magical.

8. Hookah.

Hahaha. A weekly (sometimes twice weekly, sometimes more) must with friends! :D

9. Statement accessories.

For now, it's bangles. Chunky big ass ones.

10. Twitter.

Doll.

2011-06-16T23:26:00.002+08:00

Dinner was a double date and a half.

I was obviously the half.

Thanks lah. Thanks so much.

Ledengary.

2011-06-15T12:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEIL PATRICK HARRIS!

Let's (birthday) suit up!

Do you..

2011-06-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

..remember what was stolen? Cause I still do.

I love em marshmallows. :)

Fool.

2011-06-07T10:31:00.001+08:00

I hate you.

Loathe.

2011-04-26T21:56:00.000+08:00

1. Brushing my hair.

2. The minty taste after brushing my teeth at night.

3. Fags on Facebook.

4. Fags elsewhere.

5. Sambal, sauce, mayo, etc on cucumber.

6. Eating using hands.

7. Sharpening pencils.

8. Ipoh.

And a whole lot more. Conserving my brain juice for tomorrow's O&G papers.

Wisdomosity.

2011-04-24T14:48:00.000+08:00

That's what I'm feeling. I am bursting with wisdomosity. With the eruption of my wisdom tooth, I finally am, wise. YEAH RIGHT, if only. The only thing I'm bursting with is pain. I have pericoronitis. T.T

Instead of studying for Wednesday's O&G exams, I took the liberty to Google more about it. According to wiki, pericoronitis is an inflammation of the tissue surrounding the so called wisdom tooth due to partial tooth impactions when the molar starts erupting. The signs/symptoms include:

- soreness and tenderness around the tooth area at the back of mouth

- redness and swelling of gums of affected area

- pain often aggravated by closing of mouth, worsened by swallowing

- difficulty in opening/closing mouth

- fever

- enlarged cervical nodes

Holyshizznits. I am definitely paying a visit to the dentist soon. The pain is so excruciating it disturbs my sleep, and it makes it so difficult to eat or talk. This sucks.

The wisdomosity has yet to descend.

Inflatable.

2011-04-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

Dolly.

Female dog(s).

2011-04-07T19:57:00.001+08:00

Bark, you motherfudgers. Bark!

Fags. You thought they won't follow. But they just do. They always do.

Facebook's full of shit. I tweet now.

Some people think and act like their name is Google. Especially when they say, "I know/want what's best for you yada yada." Newsflash! You don't.

My squint is really bothering me. It never does, until recently when my honorary lecturer from the ophthalmology clinic pointed out my lazy eye. Thanks. Now I have more things to be bothered bout.

Now it's Technicolor.

2011-03-30T20:58:00.000+08:00

I don't remember being this happy.

The Yesterdays.

2011-03-22T22:40:00.001+08:00

No matter how much I miss it, I'll never turn back time to relive it.

Do you know that I miss you like fuck?

Simpleton(s).

2011-02-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

If only your brain is as huge as your tits.

OMG, is that a cup holder?

2011-02-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

I'LL TAKE IT!

I miss watching Smosh. :)

I do have a strong support system. More support than push-up bras can provide.

Manual shift drive.

2011-02-04T15:45:00.001+08:00

Reverse gear.

Backing off bit by bit.

All is good.

Gigantor.

2011-01-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

We say "Sorry" all the time. But do we really mean what we said?

Saying sorry is easy. The difficult part is being sincere bout it. What I've learned so far is that hatred will get you no where. It keeps building up inside and will only tear you down from within.

And 'sides, it makes you the bigger person to apologize and to actually mean it. :)

Soldier down.

2011-01-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

I've got a soul, but I'm not a soldier.

If only I am able to turn back time, I would have made the right choice. But no. I chose to agree to that tiny annoying voice inside my head, the one who would constantly holding me back, refraining me from making life-changing decisions of my own. Such coward, giving in so easily, not wanting to stand up on my own, to fight for what I wanted.

I've hurt so many people along the way, myself especially. It's really cool if neither of you would speak to me anymore, but just so you know, I am no longer the coward I used to be. Yet, I am still the very same girl who would never pronounce the name of the Swedish car right. I even forgot how it's spelled. =.=

All is good now. :)

This was no accident.

2011-01-17T11:33:00.000+08:00

This was a therapeutic chain of events. :/

I miss home.

What's the worst kind of blues?

2011-01-17T11:28:00.000+08:00

MONDAY BLUES.

I'm having serious case of the blues. Everything doesn't seem right. Hair's being bitchy, weather isn't helping th mood too. To top it off, Orthopaedics is hell lot busier! :(

Found something on twitter, thought I might share:

Lemons.

2011-01-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

I came across so many people who asked me,

"Why medic?"

To buy an awesome car i.e. a Hummer then run over those bloody motherfuckers who has tried and will try to pull me down. That's why.

Fuck squirting lemons into people's eyes now.

Hold On.

2011-01-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

If you feel like letting go,

Just hold on.

Nobody said it was easy in the first place anyway.

Found something on the net:

-lucid interval a brief period of remission of symptoms in a psychosis.

Damn you med school. :(

My beart is heating fast.

2011-01-09T11:25:00.002+08:00

Slept at 6 in the morning, and my mind has never felt so troubled like this before. There are yet so many things undone. Case write-up, seminars, clerking and bedside assessment. Due by the end of the week. Dammit. I have yet to get started.

Woke up this morning at 11 with the feeling of void and tachycardia, spent a few minutes rolling about in bed trying to sort out this whole mess. 5 hours of sleep is not cool.

It's really disheartening seeing everything you once held so tightly in your grasps just slipping away, one by one. Like, they just, disappear. Mom's words keep playing in my mind on repeat like how The Downtown Fiction is on my playlist currently. You can change whatever you are in control of. And in this case, yourself.

How do people do it?!

Is it too late to quit medic school yet? Urgh.

Fantasy Football.

2011-01-09T04:30:00.000+08:00

I'll play the game.

The game with your rules.

Double U, O, Double U.

2011-01-05T19:11:00.000+08:00

W O W.

Wowwwee.

He knows my name! :D

And marked me absent. =.=

Eat.

2011-01-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

We'll see how long I can sustain this.

Break.

We'll see how long I can sustain this.

Drop.

We'll see how long I can sustain this.

Space.

The thing between Earth and the wild unknown.

So lost and disillusioned.

2010-12-29T16:38:00.000+08:00

This place was never the same again after you came and went. How can you say you meant anything different to anyone? Standing alone on the street with a cigarette on the first night we met. Look to the past and remember and smile and maybe tonight I can breathe for a while. I'm not in this scene. I think I'm falling asleep.

But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you. :)

Blink-182 Feeling This.

XY.

2010-12-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

One more week to redeem myself! *hyperventilates*

Hope everything'll be as smooth as butter :)

I know what I'm doing.

Goodbye 2010. I'll miss you not.

You're nothing but a year that I'd love to permanently remove form my memory.

Two heads.

Yet so brainless.

Stone walls.

2010-12-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

Do not make a prison;

nor iron bars a cage.

There's a reason why you're Hollywood Walk of Shame, you should be walked and trumped all over. Everything's all covered, but that doesn't make you less of a cunt.

Hellos & Goodbyes.

2010-12-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

We say em, but do we really really mean em?

Making $ is easy. Press shift+4.

2010-12-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

The world is full of mofos who think that they're all that. Saying things bout people but hey! They themselves are doing the exact same thing, only they make it seem more subtle.

You don't differ much from them.

Bottomline is, every Tom, Dick and Harry is the mofo I'm talking about. We're all mofos. Every single one of us.

Oh, I better start working on my new year resolutions now. One thing being to actually follow em. Hahadihaha.

Rewind.

2010-12-03T20:53:00.001+08:00

1st of June 2010.

Velcro Shoes.

2010-11-30T15:43:00.001+08:00

Dear Motion City Soundtrack,

Please make me your Betty.

Okay, so maybe I don't rock the Haro sport, or the cow girl blues.

But I won't stop listening to modern rock. And how I hate to be alone.

We waste away our days with nicotine and television samples from an era we hate to admit we embrace - The Future Freaks Me Out.

Strops.

2010-11-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

Dad gave money to buy badminton shoes. Retail is the best therapy.

I should play more sports from now on. It helps to clear one's troubled mind.

At least until I stepped into Laluan Satu. Then things start to bother me again...

I waited by the car.

2010-11-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

What took you so long?

Oh, please. Exam stress is making me sick(er).

This must be the exam stress talking.

2010-11-15T14:22:00.001+08:00

Do you have a little sister?

If you do, then you know exactly what I mean.

I miss you, Little Freak.

Killjoy.

2010-11-13T23:46:00.001+08:00

Yeah yeah. I'm the least fun one.

And I suck the fun and joy out of everything.

Whatsername.

2010-11-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

By Green Day.

One of the most awesome bands in the world. :)

And in the darkest night,

If my memory serves me right,

I'll never turn back time,

Forgetting you but not the time.

Shit. That reminds me, where the fudging fudge is my Good Charlotte cd?!?!

She's a landslide with a city beneath her.

2010-11-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

Ipoh, Perak.

A place where both my most loved and most hated ones are at.

I'm somewhat ecstatic at the thoughts of going back.

But a part of me is saying otherwise.

Why does the world operate in such wicked ways?

Jawbreakers.

2010-11-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

It sucks when someone you thought would miss you just as much;

doesn't feel the same way.

Nightmare(s) on Elm Street.

2010-11-04T02:36:00.000+08:00

5 nights in a row.

I miss the Freddy teases. :'(

Like how Freddy'd always keep me company?

I never thought it'll come to this, but I've definitely lost the drive to do medicine. The college; there's nothing to look forward to in college anymore.

Okay, it must be the nerves talking. Hello, final exams. We meet again. I'm taking you down good this time, you'll see. Good riddance.

And thanks Nadia. Talking to you (bout shoes) does make me feel a lot better. :)

Round, and round.

2010-10-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

When a rubber band is stretched, it'll recoil. But what happens when you overstretched it and it snaps?

And when you tried to tie the loose ends together, it'd be useless as the rubber band has lost its elasticity.

It's as useless as a piece of dog crap on the side of the road.

The canister's totally empty now. It used to be filled with happy melted marshmallow.

Catch a falling star.

2010-10-20T02:01:00.001+08:00

And put it in your pocket.

Never let it fade away.

I miss having a cat at home :(

The Human Race.

2010-10-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

After all, we're only humans. We're bound to face obstacles in the race.

And I bet my lil finger that no one wants to end up alone at the finish line.

Awesome possum.

2010-10-16T08:39:00.000+08:00

It's hell fun decapitating em. Thank you! :)

Brison Preak.

2010-10-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Just break it open, please oh Mr. Nutcracker.

Annoying lil creatures.

2010-09-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

3 weeks of paeds posting.

It isn't so bad after all. When I first stepped into Ward 6A I was cursing under my breath since I am quite well known for my dislikeness towards little kids, babies, toddlers of all kinds. The thought of having to associate with them especially doesn't really psych me up.

Why, don't get me wrong. I've always thought that they're nothing but annoying, dribbly, loud creatures.

Until today.

It's really heartbreaking to see some of them being strapped to wires and drips all over their tiny bodies. And don't get me started on the ones with surgical scars, or the screams and tears and blood and other stuff... T.T

I am so not prepared for this.

Sigh. And it's only the 1st day. :(

Win, lose or draw?

2010-09-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

I think I may have crossed the line. I was just so enraged with the situation I overlooked the fact that I behave worse. Everything has it's limits, so does one's patience level.

We cannot make a win-win decision all the time. Sometimes when shit happens we just have to adapt with it.

"It's like he has given you a million dollar. But you said he's stingy because one day he decided to give someone else a dollar." -anonymous

Stop pressing your luck, self.

Screaaaaaaaam! And do a lil victory dance!

2010-09-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

So here's what happened:

Seminar ended. I was busy minding me own business, trying to get the hell out of the lecture theater when he was walking up the stairs towards the door. Well, I saw him, and thought of saying hi, but I let the thought passed. Who would have known he'd stop and say hi. To me. :)

"So how are you?"

It caught me off my guard.

"Oh, I'm fine sir."

He turned around and continued walking. Izyan was looking (and prolly made faces too) so I did a little victory dance; which involves a lot of wild jumping and throwing your arms madly in the air.

But little did I know, he turned around (and obviously saw me doing a mad dance) and asked, "So what are you doing now?"

I stopped my stupid dance abruptly.

"I'm on medicine posting now sir." And put on a hopefully charming smile.

Izyan, on the other hand, made faces, again. ;p

"How do you like the physicians?"

"Oh, I prefer the surgeons, of course."

Izyan immediately went, "Suck up, suck up."

He went, "Cause we're cooler right?"

"Obviously sir!"

Hello. He stopped and said hi to me. Like yeah, it's a big deal and i just had to blog about it.

Oh, I'm tre pathetico. Hee. But Mr. W, I missed being in (your) surgery classes. :(

Okay, using abbreviation in sort of 'code' as if people can't guess. God, I'm that lame. Haha.

Cough syrup.

2010-08-25T18:29:00.001+08:00

It sucks when the role is reversed. Having to taste your own medicine sucks.

It serves you right, Dilla.

The shithole of Shitville.

2010-08-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

Some people are made of nothing but pure crap. Mothereffers. Spreading stuff everywhere/everyone and expecting shits like em to believe their crap.

Way to go.

You people should get an award.

Sugary tit-bits.

2010-08-21T02:11:00.000+08:00

We're allowed to take risks in life, but not stupid risks. Sure, it makes one's body pumps more adrenaline through the system. But still, a stupid risk is a stupid risk.

Can't change that fact. Lesson learnt? Good.

Anyhoo, on a slightly lighter note, I am beginning to adjust myself to medicine posting. It isn't that bad, so far. 2 weeks have gone by so quickly, 4 more weeks to go.

Bloody college gave us raya hols from 3rd to 12th of Sept. But raya only falls on the 10th. Bloody classes start on the 4th day of raya. WTH WTH. I want longer holidays!

Curse Ipoh airport for not having domestic flights to Penang. Boo.

Fasting's really challenging. By the crack of 9am, tummy will grumble, without fail. Then I've to go through a series of unforunate events, being lectures and bedside classes, I become hypoglycaemic by 4pm everyday. And cranky wanky when hungry. Please don't get me started on how crappy the bazaar is here. They basically sell the same stuff, crappy food too. Not to mention that we're always out of ideas of where to break fast at.

Could this be some kind of a sign for me to actually start learning how to cook? Hopefully not, cause no way that'll happen.

On a steady diet of soda pop.

2010-08-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

Stop it. Just stop. Father Time, please stop.

It's clearly not our fault you people don't get along, so please stop making our lives more miserable than it already is. Not everything he said is rubbish. Great. Now we have to redo everything. By Friday. Great.

Is it too late to quit med school? I mean, I've only wasted 2 and half years, and around $100k. So tell me, it isn't too late, is it?

College life is so twisted.

Same old, same old.

2010-08-13T14:41:00.000+08:00

It's the same thing every fudging year.

Ramadhan's really challenging the shite outta me!

Gaaaargh.

ps: Will be breaking my fast on the bus tonight. Sweet =.=

Hahadihaha.

2010-08-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my world people! :)

Lagging, Motherfudgers.

2010-08-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

Yup, that was exactly what I felt during bedside class today. Mr. Wong or not, it's sucky and I wanted to curl into a hole and die. I'm not blaming everyone else, I'm blaming myself for not being consistent with my studies. Sigh. I've been having way too much fun, it's time to redeem myself. It's my last week of surgery posting and I definitely am gonna miss it.

I am bracing myself for the ultimate *PMS in the upcoming 6 weeks of medicine posting! Or maybe I might as well dig myself a hole now, just in case.

Some people should learn to shut their fudging mouth and back each other up, assholes. Yeah, that's right, assholes, since I haven't done fudging PR yet. Fudge.

*PMS = Pre/Post Mra Syndrome.

Robbing lips, kissing banks.

2010-07-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

Is it right to punish someone who unintentionally/accidentally stole something of someone else's?

ps: Inception is awesome. A must-watch!

Universal remote control.

2010-07-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

Why doesn't life come with it?

Wrong vibes, wrong vibes.

Am throwing the towel; calling it quits now.

Before things get more effed up.

Dave the Laugh or not; I am nobody's Holly.

Period.

Sanadol poluble.

2010-07-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

I've forced these crap down my throat. I hate being under the weather. Mood swings every 5 seconds; without fail. The smallest, pettiest things tick me off.

I hate bedside classes.

Unless it's with Mr. Wong. Hee.

I'm gonna sleep now, with Motion City Soundtrack's Invisible Monster blasting on max. Please shoot me in the jaw.

Diabetic.

2010-07-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows.

Everything that's wonderful is what I feel when we're together.

I wish it'd rain cotton candy all the time. Or jelly beans. Or gummy bears.

Mmm, mmm.

I need my sugar fix.

Go swallow a Thesaurus.

2010-07-07T11:26:00.000+08:00

You stupid bitch! It might add some vocab juice in you.

Or then again. NOT!

Picking insects off plants.

2010-07-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

No time to think of consequences.

5 Bestari 2000.

I am off to create a time machine now.

Come with me Friday, don't say 'Maybe.'

2010-06-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

Simply because;

You do all sorts of new exciting things with me.

You make all kinda food look as though they taste good even though they taste like crap.

You make classes seem less like an eternity.

You never fail amusing me :)

You take me to places.

You're someone who enjoys his naps anytime and anywhere.

You rock the coolest hairstyles.

You're the only person who trusts in me to be behind manual wheels! (even if it's only when you're effin sleepy and too lazy to drive).

And a whole lotta other reasons that I can't think of. :)

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we (almost) lose it;

but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

*fill in the blank*

Sholy hit.

2010-06-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

One person by day.

Another by night time.

But no, I'm no Superhero.

Deadliest seven.

2010-06-21T14:33:00.000+08:00

Pride the desire of superiority.

Greed the desire of pursuing wealth, status and power for personal gain.

Gluttony the desire of over-indulging.

Wrath the desire of uncontrolled hatred and anger.

Envy the desire of insatiability.

Lust the desire of excessive sexual nature.

Sloth the desire of indifference.

I'm all seven. So which one is you?

Burn.

2010-06-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

So yeah. It's either hell or nothing. Make your choice. I love you Chuck Palahniuk.

I used to look at the glass half full, but now I just see it as empty. It's a crazy mixed up kinda feeling. :s

Being apart -literally or metaphorically, of course- with someone you really care about is like temporary paralysis of the extremities. Like an injury of the ulnar nerve with the ulnar claw hand kinda thing, you know.

Darn it. I think I've accidentally sent off the wrong vibes. Great. More damage control to be done. Shit shit shitty shit.

When you care so much about a certain someone, you think you care; but do you?

Sorry I've been pushy. And selfish.

And taking things for granted. It's true when people say you'll only appreciate things when they're (almost) gone. Please don't go.

Mind game.

2010-06-17T00:44:00.001+08:00

I used to be your every plan.

Now I'm wondering whether I still am; cause I always make you mine. Even until now. Even through shit.

Caffeine isn't a drug, it's a vitamin!

2010-06-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

www.toothpastefordinner.com

How do you like you coffee?

I like mine extra hot and rich.

Just like what Mom always says, 'I like my coffee like Johnny Depp. Hot and rich.'

I guess I'm someone's Holly now. So I think I am. Am I?

Chuckie says.

2010-06-05T02:11:00.000+08:00

What we don't understand we can make mean anything.

I love Chuck Palahniuk; the best writer on earth. His books, are AWESOME shit. I'm saving money for the whole collection. But how come I keep hearing this lil voice at the back of my head shouting 'Louis Vuitton!' instead? I. Must. Obey. My. Conscience.

I'm currently in Penang, spending my weekend here. Will be back to Hellpoh by Sunday night. And apparently I've been 'tonguing' a lot. Hahadihaha. ;p People think it's kinky.

So far, classes has been okay. Almost passed out in the ward today, hee. Thank God a friend caught me in time before I fell down and knocked my head or something. It was a tad bit embarrassing though, having to lie down for a while, with patients looking at you. Quite funny too, come to think of it. Haha. Oh, I love clinical year, so far. I have yet to face the shitty bits. :s

Had quite a rough day today - Ward incident thing, and bus station incident thing. Was really fucken pissed with the agent. Motherfucking bitch. Spent almost 4 hours on the bus ride home from Hellpoh to Penang. 4 hours! Imagine that. I might have developed scoliosis or deep vien thronbosis without even realising. And oh! I showed the very insignificant choleric side of myself today. Hoyeah!

I hate to admit it, but I kinda miss my sister when I'm all the way in Hellpoh. She's the only one who'd put up with my rantings and my non-stop talking. Well, apparently we kinda made ourselves get tangled up in similar-but-deff-not-the-same situations here. Hmmm.. And Adik, he's just like Dave the Laugh. So adorable.

My Dad gives the best advices! Terbaik lah Abah. Haha. Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Dear Santa.

2010-05-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

I've been good all year long. :)

Here's my one and only wish this year:

Louis Vuitton Petit Noe Monogram Multicolore.

Oh please, oh please let me have it?

Hello, hello.

2010-05-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

Distance does make the hearts grow fonder. :)

Another One Bites The Dust.

2010-03-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

Shit happens. No, shit gets thrown in your face. And, Facebook's fucking overrated. Hello, we all know it's public, but you don't have to post EVERY single thing on it, okay? Motherfuckers, you all are better off dead. I've futsal later. Shall try to channel all these hatred and anger out on the ball. Sigh. Why can't college life be all about hang outs and partying? I hate my college. Wait. Scratch that. I hate the people in my college. Fucking idiots.

I wanna be Holly. Someone's need, someone's dream.

"Be strong when things fall apart, honest this breaks my heart" - Blink-182.

Tom, Travis and Mark, you're gorgeous and all but it ain't that easy.

Switch it off then.

2010-01-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I did wrong. Sorry for setting a lousy screen saver.

I'm a failure. :(

Pant, pant, pant.

2010-01-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

My heart was literally about to pop out of my ribcage. Curse you sedentary lifestyle!

Guess what folks? I accidentally climbed up Maxwell Hill yesterday! Yeah, and now my limbs feel like they gonna fall apart and my intercostal muscles hurt from too much inhaling and exhaling.

Hyder and I were bored, so we decided to go on a roadtrip to -guess where?- Taiping! Wheee! =.=
We wanted to visit the Zoo, but it closes at 6 (it was already 4p.m. when we reached Taiping) and it'll reopen at 8 for Night Safari. Hence, we decided to kill time by first going to the Perak Museum. It was under renovation, and most of the exhibitions were not open to public.

Bought drinks from a vendor outside the museum and asked the fella what's there in Maxwell Hill. He said, 'Takda apa, tengok bunga saja..'

Thus, Maxwell Hill. To kill time lah ni. No bunga in sight whatsoever. And, we were tricked to climbed up the bloody hill by this uncle!

'Dekat saja, lagi sepuluh minit. You orang muda banyak kuat. Saya sudah tua pun.' Something along that line lah, he said.

'Dekat apa...' I wanted to pound him to pieces. We climbed, and climbed, and climbed some more. It was a blood-sweat-and-tears-kinda-struggle. Okay, more of a sweat-and-tears-kinda-struggle. After ONE hour, we reached the top. So it wasn't exactly the top, but we reached the point where there isn't any climbing anymore.

And guess what? We were too tired, we headed straight home after dinner. No Night Safari T.T

So yeah. I hate jungle trekking/mountain climbing whatshit.

Anger, hatred and whatnot.

2010-01-08T17:30:00.001+08:00

___________ *insert curse word(s)*

It isn't cool to give out one's numbers to someone else especially without the consent of that person.

Please, I hate you, whoever you are. Eff you.

xoxoxo

Of Wants & Needs.

2009-12-25T11:36:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm confused. I thought I wanted a certain something, but I guess I need it. I'll learn to diff these two.

I don't need it, I WANT it.

Be strong. Be concrite strong.

Yeah. :)

Inhale, exhale.

2009-12-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Yes, thank you. I'm still breathing; surviving.

Feel lacking on things these days, sigh. SSM's over, hell yeah. Hello, Nervous. Gonna try REALLY hard to finally learn something this time. Hee.

Oh, guilty pleasure. I love you. The SKY really LITEs up. x) hahadihaha.

Am thinking of cutting my hair into a bob. Or perm it instead? *thinks, thinks*

I bought a pair of really gorgeous chunky heels, but not the one from Charles & Keith though. Too exxy. :(

I wanna have my GREEN contacts removed, if you know what I mean. But not permanently, of course. Just for the time being.

Can I tell you something dirty?

2009-11-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

OMG! Tyson's orgasmic hot! Despite the fact that I only saw him like 3cm tall, but it was fucking worth it!

Yeargh, be envious people! Marry me, Tyson! *unleashing fangirliness side* OMG, can barely see him! *squinting eyes* He's the one with the native Indian headband. Can you see, can you see?

Brush aside everything - huge sweaty dudes jumping (not to mention the stench, please, erlack!), major headache, etc. - the concert's pretty okay. Opening acts by Disagree, One Buck Short and Pop Shuvit. And we got stranded at the train station right after, cool eh? Hung out with friends later that night. Shisha-ed. Mmmh, guilty pleasure. x) Didn't fucking sleep the whole bloody night. I looked as tough I got raped. -_-"

Feeqa and I; before it started.

Went to MIAT last Saturday. SSM stuff thingy. The hangar's pretty awesome. So now I can brag to people that I've been on an actual helly! Haha. Will be going there again soon, to collect data and stuff. Have I mentioned that NMRR has approved our proposal? So, yeah.

So enough crap, later chickass.

Helly, baybeh. Err. Missing propeller?

Whee! Welcome to Flight MH137 yada yada..

What? It's not like I get to photograph with planes everyday.

Fighter plane which name I've forgotten.

Pretty cool eh? x)

Cross my T's and dot my I's.

2009-10-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

I am going to watch All-American Rejects! Whee hoo. Hell yeah, life's good.

Went through very topsy turvy times just recently. But glad the storm's over, I'm unaffected much, yeah. Now, let's turn into a new chapter in life now, shall we? OMGEE, I totally admire myself for this sudden surge of optimism.

I'm in deep shit. Come to think of it, I'm always in deep shit now, aren't I? Am left with zero money. None, nil, nothing. Not even shillings. Had to literally beg for money to eat lunch just now. Lunch menu: McD's Double Cheeseburger McValue Meal lunch thingy. Oh, I got a purple Coke glass this time! x)

There's a fat cat living on my porch. We decided to call him Stu (last name Pitt). Stu's really fat and round and always hungry. He reminds me of Chenko.

Had oral exam for Mandarin today. Haha, tre ridonculous. My sister would be hell proud of me! Definitely screwing yet another module exam. Sigh. I promise, for CNS I'm gonna do better. Hee.

I shall call myself the epitome of cool, calm and collected.

Oh hell motherfucking yeah, AAR!!!

Friday, I'm in love. ♥

2009-10-07T02:06:00.000+08:00

I am annoyed. With a lot of things. Yet, I feel happy, and contented. I feel nervous, like butterfly-in-stomach kinda nervous.

I got harrased by a crazy person the night before. Scary shit, I tell you. :s I want Chanel spectacles! *sulk*

I've come to realized that I should stop spending money like water. Although my feet are really itching for that gorgeous pair of Charles & Keith chunky heels.. Goddammit.

What's the similary between an apple and an orange? They both grow on trees? CONGRATULATIONS, I have a mental disorder.

I must bear in mind that, 'YOU can't always please everyone'. People change. Everyone's a hypocrite. Some are major ones.

I hate kids. That includes babies, toddlers of all kinds. I don't think they're cute, at all. They are just annoying, noisy, gross creatures; to me. I am sorry, I tried liking em but it didn't work.

Holy shite. Nice, I just got bitten by a stripy mosquito. -.-''

My laundry's piling up. I have yet to chug em into the washing machine. Sigh, I am tre lazy. I have nothing else to wear, I resort to wearing kurung all week. Hello, perempuan Melayu.

Room's a bomb site too, I shall add.

I don't care if Monday's blue.
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too.
Thursday I don't care bout you.
It's Friday.
I'm in love.

Running in heels.

2009-09-24T10:37:00.000+08:00

Things are looking promising now. I've decided to turn over a new leaf. x)

I know I've sinned. All apologies. It was the anger. I'm really sorry.

Am going back to Ipoh on Saturday. Holidays are ending, it's saddening.

Oooh, I've already found a dress for the night! It's a total cutie. Hee.

Shit. SSM proposal is still undone. Craaaaaaap.

Raya was fun, nonetheless very exhausting. I secretly think Mom enjoys it more. She needn't to do all the cooking due to open houses. Haha. I've had so much of tomato rice, am never gonna devour them for the next ten years! It was fun you know, meeting all the relatives and stuff. But thank God raya is only once a year. Haha. All these food aren't exactly figure-friendly. -.-''

S.S.M. Module.

2009-09-17T03:31:00.000+08:00

Shitty.
Sucky.
Motherfucking.
Module.

I'm getting googly crazy eyes from reading stupid journals and articles regarding stress management coping strategies. It's so shitty I feel like slitting my throat over and over and over again. In the meantime, let's do a lil quiz now, shall we:

To understand my reactions to life's stressor, I shall consider my current stress coping behaviors.

Do you tense up?
Yes.

Do you reach for something to eat?
I gnaw on my nails.

Do you get impatient?
Yes. Next question!

Do you get angry?
I'm feeling pretty hostile right now.

Are you reduced to tears?
Well, not yet.

Do you give up?
It's next on my list of things-to-do.

Do you let negative thoughts take over?
Hello? Slitting throat?

Have you started smoking again?
Not yet.

Do you turn to alcohol or other drugs?
Barbican! And scented unfiltered carbon monoxide. Harhardiharhar.

Voila! I AM HELL STRESSED. Still working on the bloody research proposal. So much more to do, like the methodology and questionnaire and stuff. It is pure annoyance, no being able to get this shit done smoothly. I am losing my sanity soon.

I gotta go sniff a peanut now.

Now it's in Technicolor.

2009-09-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

Hey ho.

I think facebook is getting crappier. With all the stupid quizzes and applications and stuff. Especially FarmVille. Oh goodness. People go to the extend of waking up in the middle of the night to harvest and plant strawberries. Tsk, tsk. The internet can do things to you, no.

I've finished reading Invisible Monsters. Tre cool. Gonna read it for the second time now. I love Chuck's writing style; it is great. Am definitely buying his other books like Fight Club and Snuff. x)

I am so going for the student dinner night thing. It's gonna be fun, hopefully. On a dress-hunting mode now. Can't bloody wait! I wanna get my hair highlighted with red streaks. But I'm not allowed to. Boo hoo. This is so annoying.

Had a dream of feasting on a sushi buffet during one of my very occasional afternoon naps today. Hee. Mmm. The sushi was awesome. Not a fan of it really, but right now I crave for it. Okay! Tomorrow's break fast venue: Sushi King! Yeah. I am such a hypocrite.

Currently, I am out of full-cream milk and drinking water. Am dying of dehydration, ha. Sorry, but I don't consume mineral water. It tastes like dirt.

I miss Mr. Spidey.

I shall stop taking glucose drinks. It only disrupts my beauty sleep.

Have I mentioned how challenging fasting is?

Seasick.

2009-09-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

I'm seasick, in an ocean of emotions. Went through my old files of photos last night. Goodness, such memories.

I think Chuck Palahniuk's a genius. Am currently indulging in one of his books called Invisible Monsters. It's a good read, so far. Haven't actually finished reading.

I'm starting to feel like an invisible monster myself. Maybe I should get shot in the jaw.

I think Ramadhan's really challenging the shit out of me. It's just...challenging. Sigh.

There are a lot of things in life that I'm not satisfied about.

But, I'm afraid to make decisions about it. I'm scared of living in solitude.

Val Kilmer & Billie Joe Armstrong are really gorgeous.

I'm no saint. It's the perfect crime. x)

Woof, bark, woof.

2009-08-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

It's a dog-eat-dog world out there. And you can NEVER teach an old dog new tricks.